Recently I had been feeling a bit low...I had had a couple of weeks where the zest and excitement of my new faith had slowed down and I had been struggling to connect. A good friend of mine gave me a print out which I have typed below. She wisely said that even though faith is exciting and having a relationship with God is the best thing anyone can have in their lives, that doesnt mean that you will constantly be on a high. We dont always skip from one stunning encounter to another but it is important in these times where life can be at its hardest that we must fixate our hearts on the Lord. It is important that we remain faithful because these are the times when the devil may try to tempt us, when we are weak and alone we become easy targets to temptation and sinful ways.
"The Worship leader was excited. 'GOD IS GOOD!' He yelled into the microphone. 'All the time!' Chirruped the congregation in boisterous response. I'm taking a risk confessing this, but as the service continued, my weariness deepened, because everything, it seemed was exciting. The dear person giving the announcements spoke of an amazing prayer meeting, awesome small groups, a fantastic Alpha event. Even the weekly health group was edging towards ecstasy. The reality is that life, and the Christian life, is not like that. We don't skip from one stunning encounter to another, and we are not spared the mundane and the painful. Being passionate doesn't mean that we will always feel excited: Elijah didn't when he was in the cave of despair and Paul didn't when he felt the sentence of death in his heart. Jesus didn't trot happily into Gethsemane. As the disciples determined to keep following Jesus, they did so, perhaps even with a sense of resignation, because they knew that He was the Truth. In that sense there was nowhere else to go: He was and is it.
Passion is often associated with feelings of excitement, and we can feel guilty if we do not have those feelings, especially when, in a crowd setting, everyone else is apparently thrilled. But sometimes it's just enough to hang on, endure, be faithful, and trust God, even if our hearts feel flat and even empty. True passion pushes through when we dont feel anything much at all. And yes, God is good, all the time, whether you feel that ot not.
Pray about it ♡
Lord, when I feel alone, empty, or sad, help me to trust in you and as I do, express true passion for You. Amen.